“Just who do you think you are?” I demanded.
“Who do you think I am?”
“You are the God in the dock, often under investigation, especially when things go awry.”
“When plates under the ocean slide, causing a wave to morph into a wall of destruction on innocent people. When tornados twist through towns and suck the life out of them. When land dries up and fails to give sustaining crops to families. Anytime Mother Nature gives humanity a swift kick.”
“Yes. I struggle with them. Why don’t you give Mother Nature a stiff lecture ending with ‘God so loved the world?’ Sometimes it would be easier to be a deist, believing you set the world spinning and then walked out the door.”
“There are many easier ways.”
“You may not like them.”
“Well, right now I don’t really care for what you’re not telling me.”
“Atheist, agnostic, pantheist, materialist, naturalist, determinist, fatalist, spiritualist, —are these enough?”
“Are you suggesting I be a pluralist?”
“Not really. I just thought of some options, in case your free trial of deist doesn’t pan out for you.”
“Free trial. Heh, I get it. Not only do I put you on trial, I lump you in with all the other court room drama defenses of worldviews, philosophies, and spiritual leanings.”
“At least you’re trying. Please understand that I care for every person who walks these different paths. At the very least, they’re trying. I am saddened they feel I am not enough or worse, less than. I am also saddened many lose their lives needlessly, tragically.”
“Yeah, where were you when thousands were swept away, yanked away from their loved ones?”
“You are raising your voice.”
“You’re damn right I’m raising my voice.”
“Jerry, I love you.”
“I love you.”
“Did you love them? Were you present when the lightning struck? Did you see when their lungs inhaled water rather than air?”
“I love you. I am present. I see you.”
“You’re avoiding my questions. You’re doing a Jesus redirect lawyer thing. You’re leading me.”
“I am leading you. I am love, and love is leading.”
“Did love lead those people, too? The Haitian earthquake, how about that?”
“I knew each and every one of those precious creations of mine. Some left their bodies to be with me. Others already made their decision to go it alone. I am God, but I am not a dictator. I desire loyalty not lobotomy.”
“Wait. Wait. What about the natural destruction? What about the shifting plates? Cause and effect, was that your idea? Why didn’t you stop these events from happening?”
“Jerry, why haven’t I stopped the sun from shining or the moon from manipulating the tides? Why haven’t I sipped all the oxygen out of the atmosphere? Why haven’t I shriveled the bellies of every cloud around the globe? When my big banging voice said ‘Let there be’ there was and was and was and is and is and is. Much good came from my words, and I smiled. Don’t you smile when words come and deliver good?”
“The earth is still full of My glory. Mostly its surface and underlayment are holding together nicely. Yet all things pass away. Time passages mixed with the pressure of gravity have a natural course. That course is part of My plan.”
“So, let me get this straight, are you owning the natural disasters or not?”
“Of course. In fact, as a matter of course. The course of matter over time leaves a trail of historical proportions. The story is still unfolding under the laws of nature which I established before the foundations of the earth. Remember, I know the end from the beginning, not to mention that I Am the beginning and the end.”
“I remember, but I am in the middle, a tiny phrase in a run-on sentence as it were. We humans come and go like the tides. We wash up on shore only to be pulled away by the undertow.”
“Yes, all are like the grass that fades in the noon day sun. But that’s not the whole truth. Humans are the pinnacle of all My creation. You all weren’t simply good, but very good. You are far more like Me than any other created good. I long for you to turn to Me and find life and meaning. That is My way, and to entertain an answer to your question, the natural disasters work together for good.”
“Okay, I know what that verse says. That’s the exception clause for the weak non-thinkers.”
“Let me ask you this…how long have you been struggling over this natural disaster conundrum? How often have you looked to the heavens with an attitude of ‘what are you going to do about this one God?’ Where has all your thinking led you Jerry?”
I don’t mind, really. I understand you completely, even when your logic breaks down and you throw me under the bus, as they say. I would prefer the argument over apathy.”
“Apathy wears off after a while and I can’t live with myself. Arguing is exhausting, and I wish you would just give it to me straight.”
“And you think natural disasters are tough. If I gave it to you straight, the whole of it, the noise would deafen you, the light would blind you, and my love would melt you. Believe me, I don’t want apathy tucking you in every night. Neither do I want you to feel you have to be in control by winning arguments. By the way, I don’t argue, I discuss with the motivation of love and the journey’s end of Truth. I field questions with the freedom to answer them or guide the questioner into the mystery of hope and trust.”
“You are leading me, aren’t you?”
Wow! Loved today’s writing. Really spoke to me. Thank you for sharing!
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
A great post. To comment on one slice of it. Only 8 hours before reading this post we commented that if a person could control the weather they would need an overwhelming PR department to deal with all the disgruntled calls. We’ve been in a severe drought and then today, on my niece’s wedding day it rains and pours all day. The rebuttal was – “Consider these showers of blessing!”
Ha! So true. Glad you got some rain though. That wedding will be remembered as the wetting. *Smirk. Thanks for stopping by Jasper.
Reblogged this on Gerald the Writer and commented:
Thinking on these things again. Heart abnormalities. Human condition shtuff. Then the argument ensues. Just read an awesome book suggested by a friend that addresses the thoughts in this rambling.
“A Grace Disguised”
“How the soul grows through loss”
By Jerry Sittser
How do you have these great conversations…and then are able to put them into words on paper?!?!?! Our God is great, and He has given you such a tremendous gift, that even in your times of doubt you are able to converse with Him. Thank you for sharing! Love you, lil bro!!
Thanks Sis! I’m trying to use this gift, but more than that I’m in constant search for a whole heart…God knows!